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Hey I'm Back

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 00:33:59 GMT

Wow I have been away from my LJ for the longest time I even forgot my username HAHAHAHAHA! Well I am so glad to be back. And I came back with something to post (might be rather long lol). Well like 3 weeks ago I started being friends with this girl from work and she wanted me to come to her house and hang out well she lives with he BF and 2 other guys we all work at walmart well we where talking on the phone late one night and her roommate John didn't know who I was and it was bugging him because we worked together and he couldn't find out who I was so she has the phone on speaker and he's telling me to come over and stuff and I was telling him I couldn't because it was late and I had to work early the next day well he kept asking me and saying he wouldn't be able to sleep that night and I joked and said well I guess your not getting any sleep well we got off the phone and the next day at work my friend was telling John woke up that morning still wondering who I was so I didn't have to work the next day so I said I would come over so when they got off work we went to their house and we just hung out for a bit and we had a few drinks he was flirting with me a little and then when it got late like 1am one of the roommates Trey went to sleep (he is a party pooper but hot oh so hot lol) then like 2am Blaze(my friend) and Duane(her bf) went in their room to do stuff (ewww) and I was sitting on the chair and then John came in and said he was watching a movie and that I could come watch with him well I went in there and laid beside him on his bed and the movie was a bit boring and I was starting to fall asleep and he would look over at me then he started rubbing my hand and asking if I was "out" and I said no then he started holding my hand and I laid my head in his chest then after a while he started kissing me and then we went to full on makeout mode and he wanted to go all the way he even got the condom out and everything and at that point I had a million things running in my mind (PS I am still a virgin) and when he started opening it I said I had to go to the bathroom bad and left then I went and got on the couch and didn't go back in there then the next morning we didn't talk because he was 2 hours late for work then I went back over there that day and we talked and joked and stuff but we didn't talk about it and Blaze asked what happened between me and John and all I told her was that we kissed and this was a monday and I liked kissing him and stuff so I wanted to do it again then I went over there a few more times then my parents went out of town and I didn't want to stay home alone so I went there on Sat. night after work and when we were going to bed I was on the couch and Blaze wanted to get me a blanket even though I told her it was to hot and she asked john if he had an extra one and he said the only one he had was on his bed and then Blaze was like sleep with John and then he was like yeah you can I don't care so I went in there and laid down and after a while when we were watching tv he rolled over and put his arm around me and said your no fun and I was like why and he didn't answer me and then we watched tv a bit more then we started kissing again and I was happy because I had waited 5 days to do that (and I am not the type of girl to make the first move) then he was asking me if I wanted to have sex and I said I didn't know then he didn't ask anymore and like we don't talk about it or anything after and stuff and he told his roommate trey and I told Blaze and I told a few people we kissed but not about the sex part and Blaze kept asking if I liked him and I was telling her yes I like him and everything and I was telling her he wanted to go all the way (and she said that the other night they were talking about what we did and he said he wanted to have sex with me) but I am still a virgin so sex is still a big deal to me and I at least want my first time to be with someone I am dating and I don't know where he stands on that because we don't talk and stuff about it and I am scared to bring it up. I think he likes me but he just became my boss and we are not even supposed to hang out let alone date. But I am not sure if he wants to date or just be the kind of friends that hangout and makeout sometimes. And I am not pretty and I have really low selfconfidence and I never thought a guy like him would go for me and when he did I started feeling good about myself and thinking I was pretty and then my mom tells me All he prob wants is a piece of A$$ and that ripped all my confidence I had built up away and made me feel bad about myself and then my cousin told me that, that wasn't true because if he was looking for just that he would have moved on by now and I don't know what to think. He is really all I think about... ok I think I am done for now and people that have read what I have posted on the OT thread on the CMM board about a guy named Preston please don't think I'm a slut because I'm not but Preston quit working at the same place and never told me never calls never comes to see me or anything and I miss him I do but he must not have felt the way I thought if he just left without anything to say which is why I am scared about this thing with John I think he likes me but I also thought Preston liked so I am clearing not a person that can tell what a person feels.

Great Weekend!!!!

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 08:41:55 GMT

Hey guys I had a great weekend this week... I went to my friend Lyndsey's house friday and we chilled and danced and watched One Tree Hill. Then saturday we went shopping at a couple of shoe stores and then went to the mall (and this may come as a shock but that was the first time I had ever been in a Pac Sun and I fell in love with that store) then we stopped by Chick Flae to get something for two of our friends and randomly started talking to the guy at the window and he was HOT he was so sweet (the people behind us were probably like I wish those kids would go talk somewhere else *lol*) then we went over to Burger King to eat abd there was this kind of older guy that worked there and was making funny comments at some of the things we were saying and he was so nice then my friend Lyndsey piled all the stuff onto the tray and he came over and picked it up and gave us a tray of four *FREE* cheesecakes and he said "If I don't see you ladies before Valentines Day have a good one!" It was so sweet and he didn't do it for anyone else but us :D... Then sunday was kind of boring we watch tv and stuff and then today I slept until 2:30pm because I didn't go to bed untill 6 am *lol* and then we chilled out then ordered pizza and watch a movie called The Covnetant *SP* it had hot guy in it ;) and tomorrow is my last day here we are supposed to go to the school *my college) so my friend can go to class and I can talk to the lady and sign up for classes *yay* and then I get to go home (which I really want to because my friend is driving me crazy but I had to stay because I needed a ride to school) So that was my weekend *thanks for reading* ;)

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 20:07:34 GMT

I FEELL LIKE I AM STARING TO HATE MY PARENTS THEY KEEP BUGGING ME ABOUT GETTING A JOB AND I HAVE A APPLIED TO EVERY PLACE IN LOUSIA (THE TOWN WE LIVE IN) AND NOONE WILL CALL ME BACK AND THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND I CAN'T JUST WALK INTO TO A PLACE AND SAY GIVE ME A JOB AND THOSE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO GIVE ME A JOB NO I HAVE TO APPLY (WHICH I DID) AND THEN WAIT FOR THEM TO CALL ME BACK IF THEY DON'T CALL I CAN'T HELP THAT THEY THINK I'M NOT TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT I AM I HAVE APPLIED TO FAMILY DOLLAR, FOOD LION, CINEMA LANE, VIDEO 2000, FARMER'S FOOD, HARDEE'S, AND CVS (RMIND YOU THIS IS A SMALL TOWN AND THERE ARE ONLY SO MANY PLACES YOU CAN WORK) AND I HAVE TOLD THEM WHERE I HAVE APPLIED AND IT'S MOSTLY MY MOM THAT KEEPS TELLING ME I NEED TO GET A JOB AND I KEEP TELLING I CAN'T FORCE SOMEONE TO GIVE ME A JOB AND YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID "YEAH YOU CAN" I KEEP TRYING TO TELL HER IT'S NOT MY FAULT IF THEY DON'T CALL I CAN'T HELP THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN WHAT CA I DO TO GET THE BITCH OFF MY BACK.

HELP

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 19:13:31 GMT

As most of you know I am still not good at this whole LJ thing so I was just woundering if someone could tell me how to add an art to the top of my page like so many of you have.

?????

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 04:25:08 GMT

So me and my friends are supposed to hang out Dec. 29 and we could either come to my house or we could go to my friend Lyndsey house and Lynz said she wanted to have it at her house and she gets all excitied and started planning already and everything but I want to have it at my house because it's boring at her house and the other girls said they don't care where we have it but they have never been to her house so they don't know how boring it is over there. Her stepdad will be home that day so we can't make any noise and she has a small room and and 7 girls are not going to be comfortable in there and 7 girls together are going to make noise and the only thing we can do at her house is eat pizza and watch movies. If we have it here we have a two room sheid out side with a stove and we can all go out there and watch movies, eat pizza, listen to music, play pool and be as loud as we want. I think we should have it at my house because I think we would have more fun. Where do you think we should have it?

FAST FOOD?

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 01:17:43 GMT

I don't understand why fast food places can't make their food look like the pictures. Like I went to Hardees tonight and good the new Chicken Salad and the New Chili Cheese Fries and they look so god in the picture but when I got it home it looked so nasty. Just something I was thinking about.

FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:34:53 GMT

I can not stand my family this time of the year. I mean my aunt is such a liar I can't stand it. And ever since my grandpa died she tries to keep my grandma to her self and my grandma always goes over her house and stays and never comes over here or to my uncles house and it's so not fair she has stayed over there every christmas for 3 years and she won't come over here and it's not fair because she has watched my cousin open her gifts but she has not came over to watch us. and we live 10 mins away from my aunt so it's not like she has to travel any longer to get to our house. My aunt just has to have christmas over her house and no one wants to go over there because her house is so drity and gross and stinks and they are just really nasty people and my uncle will just go over there because he doesn't want to be mean and my mom said everyone can come over here but she said they are staying home and she is going to get my grandma christmas eve so this year she will not only be there with them christmas morning but I won't get to spend anytime with her and it just pisses me off so bad that my aunt lies and is so jealous. Like when my grandma was in the hospital we got her a rose with a bear on it and she had to change rooms so my aunt took all her stuff home and said she put the rose on her table in the house and put water in it but a couple of days later I went with her to the store and when went to put the stuff in the trunk and there was the rose laying over with no water and all mashed up and I really hate the fact that she lied and I just hate it because she lies about stuff so smalls like about what she is cooking for dinner I mean why would you lie about aomething like that? And my grandma so gets on my nerves because she talks about my aunt like a dog and about how nasty and gross her house is but she will just run over there and stay the night for days and we ask her to stay here and she tells us no and it really hurts my feelings and it just seems like ever since my grandpa died my aunt doesn't want anything to do with us and she doesn't want my grandma to have anything to do with us. Thanks for reading I had to vent to someone!

Normal?

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 06:27:01 GMT

Is it normal to be 18 and out of high school and still not know what college you wanna go to or if you even wanna go to college. I don't even know what I wanna do for the rest of my life I know I don't wanna at a fast food place. I took a test to become a nurse but I failed it and I am scared to go back and take it again but I want to because I really want to be a nurse or at least I think so I kind of wanna go to UNC and Major in Film Studies. I don't know what I wanna do. All I know is I'm 18 almost 19 out of school with no job and it's all really confusing.

Help!!!!!!!

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 22:36:27 GMT

Hey guys, well for the past 3 weeks this guy that use to be engaged to one of my very good friends has been IMing me and flirting with me and asking me when I am going to come over and I keep making up reason's I can't go and hang out with him and his friend and his friends girlfriend. I have a feeling he wants to ask me out, but I don't want to go out with him. He is really starting to bug me and I don't know what to tell him. What should I do?

.:Melissa:.

Parents!

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 21:29:59 GMT

OMG! Were parents just put on this earth to get on our nerves and yell at us all the time? My mom always talks before thinking and when I correct her she gets all mad. When she ask me and my brothers to do stuff for her, we do it then she yells at us because we didn't do it the way she wanted it done. And she always puts us done and yells at us. But sometimes she can be nive and sometimes we get along. Is anyone else parents like that? Sorry to dump all this stuff on you guys, but I have to get it out and what better way to do it than in my LJ.

<3 always Melissa

Hi

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 00:04:06 GMT

This my my first LJ so I am still getting the hang of things, so sorry if there is not much on my page. I would like to say if anyone is from FanForum that I am Iluvchad18 (Melissa). Thanks and I hope you enjoy my page. :D
.:Melissa:.